a trail

in the snow on the trail

a patch of trail

actively dying

a pause in her breathing --
time enough
to open the window

B A L A N C E

 

No Matter

Doesn't matter how far I fall,
it's still, it's still, it's still worth it!

Have you ever been up here?  Have you,
have you ever done this, like this?

No matter, no matter how far I fall
I'd still be doing what I'm doing, and that's

if I even fall at all.

Savings

                               Prickly Pear, Fruit of Opuntia

Savings

Despite work
to find work,
the last food
shrinks

because you,
me, the kids:
noone,
noone wants to eat it.

How long have we
been here, staring
at what we
want the other to eat?

Even the cactus
can't keep going like this.

Goals of Care #2

What I want you to do is gather all
the blown glass trinkets I've made
put em in the fire and make one big
hunk of all of it, bring it here,
bring it here and, well then
stand up on that chair,
and wait for one of those moments
I stop breathing, a long pause,
a really long pause and right,
right before I start going again,
breathing again, lift it up,
that big glass hunk of all of it,
lift it up and friggin, friggin
throw it against the wall!
Pow!  Smash!  All of it!
Then what I want you to do
is pick up a piece of it,
and it's gotta be red, pick up
a red piece of smashed glass,
and just put it in my hand.

Yeah.  Yes.  Put it in my hand.

Always did like red.
Didn't learn to blow glass
till I was already old.
And first thing I did with it
is what I always did with it:
worked in red.  Sorry you gotta
clean all that up, but that's,
that's what I want.  If you're gonna
ask me, that's what I want.
Always,
always did
like red.

Critical Care

There IS a limit, there IS a line,

what I'm ASKING you though, what I'm asking is don't

give up on this man. That's my husband,
and when we get to that line, I'll tell you, believe me

I will tell you. I don't want my husband

to suffer any more than you do, so I'll

be the first to tell you when we got to stop.

For now though -- please. Do your thing.

And when you do it -- please -- do it

with the same hope I have.